Pluto - Musique

I Recorded And Edited This Album By Myself In A Basement. I Was Determined To Do The Whole Thing Alone I’m Not Sure What I Was Trying To Do By Doing That But That Was The Idea And I Was Pretty Much Hell-Bent On It. I Recorded Some Of The Tracks On An Old Tape Deck That My Dad Had. I Recorded The Others Through A USB Interface That My Friend’s Dad Gave Me A Couple Years Ago. I Recorded Some Of The Tracks With My Dad’s Old Washburn Acoustic And The Other Tracks With Guitars That My Friend Had Done A Lot Of Work On Or That I Worked On After He Showed Me How To Work On Them. Other Friends Gave Me Feedback On A Lot Of The Tracks And That Really Encouraged Me To Keep Playing And Recording And Lots Of Times Just Having Someone To Talk To Was Enough To Give Me The Energy Needed To Get That Creative Spark Going And Kindle The Flame Afterward. I Also Was Going To Scrap This Entire Idea And Forget About Making An Album The Same Day I Got An E-Mail From A Very Good Friend Of Mine — He’d Re-Organized The Track Order And Encouraged Me To Finish It And So I Picked It Up Again. That Was Less Than A Day Ago. My Whole Life People’ve Been Telling Me “you Have To Help Yourself.” I Never Felt Right When I Heard That And I Always Felt That Something Inside Me Really Disagreed With That. Now I Know What It Was I Was So Blinded By My Obsession With Doing Everything Alone I Didn’t Even Notice That Doing Anything Alone’s Impossible. A Sperm Cell And An Egg Cell Form A Zygote — And That Zygote Becomes A Human Being. The Zygote Is More Than The Sperm Cell And The Egg Cell Together And It’s The Same Thing With A Human Being Which Is More Than That Zygote It Started As. “The Whole Is Greater Than The Sum Of The Parts.” Contained In Every One Of These Songs Is All The Music I’ve Listened To All The People I’ve Talked To All The Connections I’ve Made — Thinking That I Thought I Was Doing This Alone Is Making Me Feel Kind Of Silly Right Now. But It Makes Me Feel Less Silly When I Remember That I Recorded A Lot Of These During Or In-Between Nervous Breakdowns I’ve Been Having In My Parents’ Basement As A Result Of Social And Emotional Isolation. It’s Really Easy To Rationally Understand That You’re Not Alone It’s A Lot Harder To Feel That You’re Not Alone On An Emotional And Intuitive Level. To Make A Long Story Short I Feel Good About This Album Because It’s Personal Proof To Me That “you Have To Help Yourself” Isn’t True. What I’ve Learned Is That Sometimes You Can’t Help Yourself And When You Think You’re Helping Yourself You’re Using Resources You Got Or Learned From Someone Else Anyway — So Really Whether We Know It Or Not We’re All Constantly Depending On Other People To Pick Us Up Off The Ground And Whenever We Pick Ourselves Up Off The Ground There’s Millions Of Hands Helping Us Up That We Don’t Even See Unless We Think About It. People Need People. People Make Art And Art Connects People So When It Comes Down To It Art Is About People Connecting With Other People. “The Whole Is Greater Than The Sum Of The Parts.” I Believe In God For The Same Reason I Believe In Love I Believe That We Can’t Do It On Our Own. I Need God And I Need The People God Made. I’m Not Saying That Because I Feel Like I Should Or Because I’m Obligated To I’m Saying It Because That’s The Truth I’ve Found In Life. I Need God And I Need The People God Made No Matter What Happens That’s The Truth. “You Sound Like You Need A Hug” — That’s The Kind Of Simple Sympathy That Can Lift People Up And In A Way When I Really Think About That Truth I Learned It’s Like Having That Sympathy All The Time. We Weren’t Made To Carry The World On Our Shoulders. Just Having Someone Be Aware Of What Your Needs Are Can Be Really Comforting When You’re Having A Crisis So We Help Ourselves By Being Aware Of The Fact That We Can’t Help Ourselves — We Meet Our Needs By Fully Realizing That We Can’t Meet Our Needs — I Need God And I Need The People God Made. I Feel Like God Understands That And God Doesn’t Expect Me To Not Have Those Needs. That’s Really Comforting To Me. “The Whole Is Greater Than The Sum Of The Parts.” As An Ending Note The Cover Art From A Comic I’m Working On Is My Life Story And To Make That Really Long Story Really Short Fantasizing Daydreaming And Constantly Using My Imagination Have All Been Adaptive Measures That Have Allowed Me To Cope With Life And Other People’s Art Has Fueled My Fantasies And Imagination And Allowed Me To Cope About A Million Times Better Than I Would’ve Been Able To Otherwise — I Never Would’ve Thought To Write A Comic Or Play Music Or Do Anything If I Didn’t Live In A World Full Of People Who Were Helping Me In One Way Or Another A Lot Of Times Just By Sharing Their Work And Making It Possible For Other People Like Me To Find It. In Other Words Other People Saved My Life. I’ve Always Talked About Being Alone And How Isolation Is Hell On Earth – And I Do Think That A Lack Of In-Person Emotional Support And Contact And Connection And Affection Can Be Devastating And Mentally Incapacitating To Put It Another Way It Can Be Torture – But I’ve Experienced Movies Anime Music Comics Videogames Martial Arts Cooking Psychology I Think Of Psychology As An Art Form And That It’s The Refreshment Of A Childlike Wonder And Excitement For Adventure And Exploration That Makes People Feel Better More Than Anything Else …I’ve Experienced All These Works Of Art That Other People’ve Made And All Those Works Have Fueled My Ability To Cope With Pain – And That’s Just Another Way Of Saying All These Things People Have Done Have Helped Me A Lot. Other People’s Art Has Helped Me Rekindle Flames I Thought Had Died – Especially Emotional Ones That I Thought Prolonged Periods Of Time Without Contact Had Snuffed Out Completely – And In That Sense I’ve Always Had The Contact And Closeness I’ve Wanted My Whole Life – These People Who’ve Shared Their Art Have Just By Opening Themselves Up To The World Let Me Into Their World – And Isn’t That The Basis Of Every Kind Of Relationship? So I Didn’t Do This Alone And Beyond That I Couldn’t Have. Life Is Synergy. April 07 2010 read less